IM SELECTED FOR BNJ!!
there's training on mon, tues and wed ((:
cant wait to feast on yummy ICECREAM!

i hate my dad. seriously.
dad, if loving me is so hard.
please throw me out this instant.
i cant stand another comment or action.
mum, you too.
tell me, im a kid you picked up some where.
and ill go away.
i cant take it any more.
i try to make myself feel better by staying
out as late as possible. but it aint working.
im gonna burst soon.
i wanna leave.

why dad? why cant you love me like
you love px and yx.
why is it that everything that i do is wrong.
just because i cant achieve the same as them
in badminton or studies?
even if i did, you'll never recognise my efforts.
dad, im really tired.
it would really make me feel better if you
tell me straight in the face that you hate me too.

dad, have you wondered why i like to rebel so much?
wondered why i clubbed so much?
wondered why i do all that stuff?
because i want you to pay attention to me.
i want to feel wanted in this family.
i want to feel like im part of this family.
because being out there makes me feel wanted
because all the JERKS out there, they see me.
but im invisible in your eyes.

mx and tiff,
i cant ignore him any more.
how am i suppose to ignore someone that
i see everyday.
i cant tell you guys how i feel.
cause you guys have never been the middle child.
how much so that our situations
are similar, they are not the same.
the advices just dont work.
cause you guys are not me.
im alone in this and i know it.


/ each minute that i stay alive
the cut just gets deeper.